。。。我听。
我听到闹钟的响声。我听到水龙头的流水声。我听到刷牙的摩擦声。
我听到妈妈在炒菜、爸爸在修水喉。我听到肚子在叫。
我听到雨滴洒在身上。我听到引擎的运动。我听到旁边的男生放屁，也嗅到了他放出来的物体。
我听到我名字。我听到了指示。我听到了给我的问题，却听不到我的回应。
我更是听不见，那谣传潜藏在心里的
天籁之音？
听
Thursday, April 19, 2007
Wednesday, April 18, 2007
无聊
‘无聊’是“死亡笔记簿”的第一章，无聊的死神碰上无聊的夜神月。死神只能杀人，杀了人又会增寿，所以杀人杀得无聊。夜神月是个天才，但再聪明也无法改变世界，只能做些无关痛痒的事。
我也很无聊，因为两个月的时间里我大部分时间就是在面壁等时间过。事实上我也无法确定有什么事情是值得做、不‘无聊’的。生活本来就是无聊的吧。。。任何感觉上有趣的活动其实也只是有利于生命的延续。把人类撇开观看世界，所有事都无关紧要。
人生的意义，就是活着，活在欢乐的幻觉，活到含笑而终。
我也很无聊，因为两个月的时间里我大部分时间就是在面壁等时间过。事实上我也无法确定有什么事情是值得做、不‘无聊’的。生活本来就是无聊的吧。。。任何感觉上有趣的活动其实也只是有利于生命的延续。把人类撇开观看世界，所有事都无关紧要。
人生的意义，就是活着，活在欢乐的幻觉，活到含笑而终。
sian
.............................................................................................................................................................................................................如果我的生活有什么好写的内容，就不sian了。
Friday, March 30, 2007
Persuit of Happiness
I believe that most people would agree that the ultimate aim in life is to be happy. Whatever we are striving for now, whether it is more money, more recognition, or a better health, all roots back to a search for happiness, whether we are aware of it or not. We work, we earn, we give, we take, whatever we do or aim for, it is beacause we believe it will make us happier.
The tricky part is, what is it that will make us truly happy? Or put it in another way, how can happiness be sustained? Since happiness cannot be mistaken when we are actually feeling it, the differentiation between the happiness we seek and pleasure seeking would be the timeless component of the former, compared to the short-lived sensation encountered in the latter.
To have a sustained happiness, it depends on how we look at ourselves and the things we are doing. That means when we value ourselves and believe in the significance of the things we are doing, usually we are happier. For example, a person who is able to value his strength and admits but continue to improves on his weaknesses, would be happier than a person who simply refuse to acknowledge his own value.
However, to truly value our own significance will take time and effort. We will not become a better person by telling ourselves how good we are every morning. To deal with matters of the heart I always feel a more direct and active approach is necessary. When we are feeling bad about ourselves, first we have to identify what is the true culprit that is making us unhappy. After identification, we will need to judge whether this problem we are having is being magnified unknowingly, or is it important that we do something about it. How objective we are in judging our situation would hugely affect the accuracy of our conclusion, which would determine if happiness would follow after the actions you deemed necessary are taken.
When happiness seems elusive, it's because the world and society confuses us of what is truly important. At the end of the day, we should know that it is only our own judgement that we need, and it is only that which can tell us the true happiness that we seek. Good luck.
The tricky part is, what is it that will make us truly happy? Or put it in another way, how can happiness be sustained? Since happiness cannot be mistaken when we are actually feeling it, the differentiation between the happiness we seek and pleasure seeking would be the timeless component of the former, compared to the short-lived sensation encountered in the latter.
To have a sustained happiness, it depends on how we look at ourselves and the things we are doing. That means when we value ourselves and believe in the significance of the things we are doing, usually we are happier. For example, a person who is able to value his strength and admits but continue to improves on his weaknesses, would be happier than a person who simply refuse to acknowledge his own value.
However, to truly value our own significance will take time and effort. We will not become a better person by telling ourselves how good we are every morning. To deal with matters of the heart I always feel a more direct and active approach is necessary. When we are feeling bad about ourselves, first we have to identify what is the true culprit that is making us unhappy. After identification, we will need to judge whether this problem we are having is being magnified unknowingly, or is it important that we do something about it. How objective we are in judging our situation would hugely affect the accuracy of our conclusion, which would determine if happiness would follow after the actions you deemed necessary are taken.
When happiness seems elusive, it's because the world and society confuses us of what is truly important. At the end of the day, we should know that it is only our own judgement that we need, and it is only that which can tell us the true happiness that we seek. Good luck.
Monday, March 26, 2007
System Restore Point
明天又要开始新的刺激。可以有机会这么近距离地与一大群奇怪得很可爱的人接触、工作，让我无比兴奋，感觉像在探险。
初步观察，那里的人对生命意义看法都有一点畸形与片面，而这种形象也可以很确定是为提高团队效率而强加于自身。位居高位者都有很高超的人性控制技巧，而招聘的过程也刻意安排足够的时间与场合，成为高位者尽其能操控并强行改变人心自觉的舞台。
有鉴于此，在重踏虎穴之前，先记下一些文字以便将来自救。
“细推物理洒行乐，何为浮名绊此生”
有必要时，就靠它重生。
初步观察，那里的人对生命意义看法都有一点畸形与片面，而这种形象也可以很确定是为提高团队效率而强加于自身。位居高位者都有很高超的人性控制技巧，而招聘的过程也刻意安排足够的时间与场合，成为高位者尽其能操控并强行改变人心自觉的舞台。
有鉴于此，在重踏虎穴之前，先记下一些文字以便将来自救。
“细推物理洒行乐，何为浮名绊此生”
有必要时，就靠它重生。
Friday, March 16, 2007
The Last Day
“最后”总是会充满遗憾的。这么不潇洒的习惯今天又重复了。
IT Show 的最后一天，生意实在是比开始的两天好多了。我一面忙着工作，一面筹划买电脑还有sck 的2GB SD card 的事情。但我实在已经没有多余的思考空间，来核定我所作出的选择是否明智。幸好，偶尔望一下她的背影还是可以的。
就这样半梦半醒地等到我家人来，帮我买了前一晚就已经选好的电脑，还特地找了糊涂得没。。没话说但费了很多时间向我讲解的销售员向他购买。
电脑解决了，我还得买sd card 还有梦想中的1gb ram。还好后来sim 也来了，帮我买了sd card，也提醒我ram 不用急着买，因为IT Fair卖的和市价差不多。可惜我就是急着买。。。
展览会结束前，我乘乱溜去买了梦寐以求的1gb ram。
老板娘让我们这些临时销售员下班后，我便和另外两个纯情男孩站在一边吃晚饭，想顺便等着cashier girls 们一起下班，可惜她们忙得连让我插句话都不好意思。后来发现我那可怜的妈妈姐姐还拖着一台电脑在会展楼下等我帮忙，只好放弃和可爱同僚们一起逛逛的想法，赶忙去与家人会合。
回到家后，察看收据，才发现我买的1gb ram根本派不上用场，简直把我气炸了。然后又发现本来该附送的2gb sd card也忘了给。我差不多想杀人了。不过再大的怒气，也只能往肚里吞。
回想那四天光景，活力十足的会场，眼花缭乱的产品，各行各业的人。派不出传单的anqi、无厘头的min er、脑袋少根筋的爆炸头eng shao、本质老实的weixiong、还有永远乐于助人的。。。cashier girls们。。。
我怎么连名字都忘了跟她们要。。。
带着11/03/07至今的遗憾写下。
IT Show 的最后一天，生意实在是比开始的两天好多了。我一面忙着工作，一面筹划买电脑还有sck 的2GB SD card 的事情。但我实在已经没有多余的思考空间，来核定我所作出的选择是否明智。幸好，偶尔望一下她的背影还是可以的。
就这样半梦半醒地等到我家人来，帮我买了前一晚就已经选好的电脑，还特地找了糊涂得没。。没话说但费了很多时间向我讲解的销售员向他购买。
电脑解决了，我还得买sd card 还有梦想中的1gb ram。还好后来sim 也来了，帮我买了sd card，也提醒我ram 不用急着买，因为IT Fair卖的和市价差不多。可惜我就是急着买。。。
展览会结束前，我乘乱溜去买了梦寐以求的1gb ram。
老板娘让我们这些临时销售员下班后，我便和另外两个纯情男孩站在一边吃晚饭，想顺便等着cashier girls 们一起下班，可惜她们忙得连让我插句话都不好意思。后来发现我那可怜的妈妈姐姐还拖着一台电脑在会展楼下等我帮忙，只好放弃和可爱同僚们一起逛逛的想法，赶忙去与家人会合。
回到家后，察看收据，才发现我买的1gb ram根本派不上用场，简直把我气炸了。然后又发现本来该附送的2gb sd card也忘了给。我差不多想杀人了。不过再大的怒气，也只能往肚里吞。
回想那四天光景，活力十足的会场，眼花缭乱的产品，各行各业的人。派不出传单的anqi、无厘头的min er、脑袋少根筋的爆炸头eng shao、本质老实的weixiong、还有永远乐于助人的。。。cashier girls们。。。
我怎么连名字都忘了跟她们要。。。
带着11/03/07至今的遗憾写下。
Day 3
今天是off day。。。是为了庆祝vin 的生日才申请的。因为觉得很难向老板娘解释为朋友庆祝生日的重要性，所以无论同僚如何追问，都只是说“私人问题”。要不然我是很想向可爱的少女们澄清自己是没有女朋友地。。。
Vin 的生日是在Suki Sushi 庆祝。照往常一样，我们送了一些不可告人的礼物，然后吃buffet，然后又作了一些清肠消毒的健康甜品(wasawasawasawasabe水果拼盘)为Vin 贺寿。然后东逛西逛，在被和蔼的保安大叔赶出大楼后，我们便在大楼外拍了一张群体照，然后各自道别。
离开那里后，我和sck 一起去了IT Fair。
今天的人潮实在多得恐怖，真是羡慕今天工作的同僚们。当然我也不闲，要忙着收集各品牌电脑的资料。最后兜兜转转，走到sck也不耐烦后，才迫不得已，带着很多的疑问，离开会场。
今晚就要做出最后决定了，好烦啊。。。
以10/03/07 的角度写出。
Vin 的生日是在Suki Sushi 庆祝。照往常一样，我们送了一些不可告人的礼物，然后吃buffet，然后又作了一些清肠消毒的健康甜品(wasawasawasawasabe水果拼盘)为Vin 贺寿。然后东逛西逛，在被和蔼的保安大叔赶出大楼后，我们便在大楼外拍了一张群体照，然后各自道别。
离开那里后，我和sck 一起去了IT Fair。
今天的人潮实在多得恐怖，真是羡慕今天工作的同僚们。当然我也不闲，要忙着收集各品牌电脑的资料。最后兜兜转转，走到sck也不耐烦后，才迫不得已，带着很多的疑问，离开会场。
今晚就要做出最后决定了，好烦啊。。。
以10/03/07 的角度写出。
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