多情自扰

世上没有一个结束是圆满的。圆满的都没有结束。我并不十分喜爱这份差，但我更抗拒结束。说的是“再见”，但更可能缘尽今朝。任何有意无意的友谊，都露出了肤浅与虚伪的本质；纯粹为了工作而存在的联系，瞬间消失于无形。

像所有的结束，它带走所有，只留下，空荡荡的，遗憾。

language barrier

I ask, "Sir, are you carrying and liquid or gel items in your hand-carry?"

He reply, "Penang."

I ask, "Any water, toothpaste in your bag?"

He reply,"Bangladesh."

I say," This way please."

听

。。。我听。

我听到闹钟的响声。我听到水龙头的流水声。我听到刷牙的摩擦声。

我听到妈妈在炒菜、爸爸在修水喉。我听到肚子在叫。

我听到雨滴洒在身上。我听到引擎的运动。我听到旁边的男生放屁，也嗅到了他放出来的物体。

我听到我名字。我听到了指示。我听到了给我的问题，却听不到我的回应。


我更是听不见，那谣传潜藏在心里的

天籁之音？

听

无聊

‘无聊’是“死亡笔记簿”的第一章，无聊的死神碰上无聊的夜神月。死神只能杀人，杀了人又会增寿，所以杀人杀得无聊。夜神月是个天才，但再聪明也无法改变世界，只能做些无关痛痒的事。

我也很无聊，因为两个月的时间里我大部分时间就是在面壁等时间过。事实上我也无法确定有什么事情是值得做、不‘无聊’的。生活本来就是无聊的吧。。。任何感觉上有趣的活动其实也只是有利于生命的延续。把人类撇开观看世界，所有事都无关紧要。

人生的意义，就是活着，活在欢乐的幻觉，活到含笑而终。

sian

.............................................................................................................................................................................................................如果我的生活有什么好写的内容，就不sian了。

Persuit of Happiness

I believe that most people would agree that the ultimate aim in life is to be happy. Whatever we are striving for now, whether it is more money, more recognition, or a better health, all roots back to a search for happiness, whether we are aware of it or not. We work, we earn, we give, we take, whatever we do or aim for, it is beacause we believe it will make us happier.

The tricky part is, what is it that will make us truly happy? Or put it in another way, how can happiness be sustained? Since happiness cannot be mistaken when we are actually feeling it, the differentiation between the happiness we seek and pleasure seeking would be the timeless component of the former, compared to the short-lived sensation encountered in the latter.

To have a sustained happiness, it depends on how we look at ourselves and the things we are doing. That means when we value ourselves and believe in the significance of the things we are doing, usually we are happier. For example, a person who is able to value his strength and admits but continue to improves on his weaknesses, would be happier than a person who simply refuse to acknowledge his own value.

However, to truly value our own significance will take time and effort. We will not become a better person by telling ourselves how good we are every morning. To deal with matters of the heart I always feel a more direct and active approach is necessary. When we are feeling bad about ourselves, first we have to identify what is the true culprit that is making us unhappy. After identification, we will need to judge whether this problem we are having is being magnified unknowingly, or is it important that we do something about it. How objective we are in judging our situation would hugely affect the accuracy of our conclusion, which would determine if happiness would follow after the actions you deemed necessary are taken.

When happiness seems elusive, it's because the world and society confuses us of what is truly important. At the end of the day, we should know that it is only our own judgement that we need, and it is only that which can tell us the true happiness that we seek. Good luck.

System Restore Point

明天又要开始新的刺激。可以有机会这么近距离地与一大群奇怪得很可爱的人接触、工作，让我无比兴奋，感觉像在探险。

初步观察，那里的人对生命意义看法都有一点畸形与片面，而这种形象也可以很确定是为提高团队效率而强加于自身。位居高位者都有很高超的人性控制技巧，而招聘的过程也刻意安排足够的时间与场合，成为高位者尽其能操控并强行改变人心自觉的舞台。

有鉴于此，在重踏虎穴之前，先记下一些文字以便将来自救。

“细推物理洒行乐，何为浮名绊此生”

有必要时，就靠它重生。